A pencil,dream and Inception.

I have something to share. Many of you may find it is interesting. And also it is something everyone should try. I have spent hours on eBooks for this and personally researched. I’m sharing this because you should experience the ultimate part of dreams. Sit back, read slowly. Here we go...

Few years ago my roommate downloaded Inception. What really made me to watch this movie was I’m big fan of Christopher Nolan.  Every movie he directed was brilliant. Okay. That night I watched the movie. I watched the movie the next night. Well, I watched the same movie five nights in row to understand it clearly. As usual, I praised the director/writer Nolan for writing such an original and brilliant script. I like the way he ended the movie. I loved the movie in depth and forgot it as days passed. Roughly a year ago, I happened to read Wikipedia page of Inception movie. There a word really impressed me –‘Lucid dream’.  After spending weeks studying lucid dreaming, I came up realizing mind-twisting, amazing world that exist behind dreams!!

a Hollywood Sci-fi movie –

We dream almost every night. When we are dreaming, we don’t aware that we are dreaming.  Dreams just go off your control. We know it was a dream when only we wake up from sleep. Wait, what if we are dreaming and we realize it is a dream!? Putting in simple words, a lucid dream is any dream in which one is aware that one is dreaming. In lucid dreams you get control over the dream environment. Just like a gamer has control over scenes of video game he playing.

After reading online that anybody can lucid dream, I decided to experience it. I had lot of time to work on it. Let me explain things I did to achieve lucid dream and my first lucid experience.

Before I start I should clarify that Inception movie has nothing to do with this case. As you have seen in the movie, you can’t just sleep off by a nasty chemical, and then have a quick dream. Inception is 100% fiction and lucid dreaming is 100% accurate. You have to train your brain in order to rule your world.  The training is to make understand your brain that you are really interested in waking up in the dream.

Firstly, I want to share my first experience of lucid dream. Then only I will explain you techniques.

I was in a store room stuffed with broken furniture. The room was not so dirty. I look around for any exit. Yeah there was a door behind me in distance. Suddenly, by practice, I read my palm- ‘I’m awake’.  What the heck is this??? At this point an unexplainable thing happened. When I read the sentence, I realized I’m in my dream. The environment around was not so usual. Everything around me was slightly vibrating. The color of furniture was changing whenever I looked at it. I felt so imbalanced. Then I felt, yes I’m dreaming and I’m awake in the dream!!!.

To be continued...

Your blue pouch

You don’t know that I feel hard to start writing about you without mentioning your name at first.  At the same time I feel name not necessary, then I just move on. Am supremely confident that when you read this letter, you will understand it is addressed to you. Moreover this letter starts with ‘you’.

          

            I wonder why only your memories bring me more happiness than any. I feel happy when I talk with you, when I memorize you and the fact that I was with you long ago. Wish in your mind I appear seldom.

           

           You had a sky blue jeans pouch with you. You used take out money from it whenever we fought for paying bills. Remember?  I liked that pouch.  I liked the color of it and mostly I liked for it was been with you most of the times. A non living thing that so lucky than me

            

           That day we were been to temple in an evening. I did not pray. I watched you praying. You closed your eyes not so long and spoke something yourself. We then sat at stairs. You asked what I did pray. I don’t remember what I replied but I still remember that I thanked god for being reason for me to be with you. I cracked some jokes and you laughed beautifully. I realized that whole happiness of my life lies within your smile. At the temple, in front of god, your smile looked so devoted. First time I liked god.

          

            Once we were having tea at college canteen. We were talking along sipping hot tea. You remembered something and unzipped your bag, took Goodday biscuits. You asked to have some. We ate few of them. I asked if you want to have anything. You said no. It was our first encounter at canteen.

          

               I like you, you know it. You may even know that it is not just ‘like’. It is something much more. It is something you cannot judge. It is something that keeps me going. It is something can’t explainable. It’s not liking nor loving. 

To you,

            I don’t know how to start this letter. I wrote and erased hundred words before started this one. I don’t know from where to start. I don’t have any idea what to write about you. So, I just go with whatever my heart says, I write straight from heart. No matter what you think.

            Sometimes I think I should start with our first meet at college in that fine evening. Sometimes my heart says I better start with our first day out. My mind is still hovering.

            That evening we were having noodles together, sitting opposite. I was shivering inside. There were few guys at the noodle stall. They were looking at us thinking we are pair. But we were not. We were just friends, In fact, best friends. You were still struggling use the fork with noodles. I was finished half of plate.

            Getting drunk and making call to girl friend is not considered polite in India. But I did that to you. But I talked in polite way. I did not scream. I did not use bad words in texts. In the morning when I was in full of hangover, you called me. You told all the texts I sent you. You told me that the way I behaved previous night was not good. You know? The way you told it was also not good.  You considered it as if I came straight to your PG and knocked your door.

            You did avoid me. I was hurt not because you avoided me, but because I believed that you were not like rest of the girls in the world. There were hundreds of ways to make things better, but you decided to avoid me just like any other girls does. Thank you.

            You may think I’m not a good friend. You may even think I was been a good friend to you but I secretly started loving you. Yes, but I was not sure I was really in love. But I always did care you more than a friend. It was like more than a friendship, little less than love or beyond both.

            I invited you to dinner. You said NO. No explanations further.

For any girl, the easiest and powerful way of getting rid of boy is avoiding. You thought avoiding me was good for both of us. But it was not. You just escaped knowing it was not good for me.

I always knew that there is no place for my emotions in your heart. You are like an endless ocean, where I set a sail in that ocean in search of seashore. I never reach a coast; I never see a silver line on cloud. But I keep sailing caused by wind of your memories. It takes me to place I never been before.

Still I’m thinking what actually I expecting. I don’t expect your emotions towards me (I know it’s not possible). We can’t be a pair (but still a better love story than Twilight).